12 We don’t yet see things clearly. We’re squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won’t be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We’ll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us! 1 Corinthians 13:12 MSG
A state of mental vagueness or bewilderment.
Last night my sleep was disturbed by waking up in a panic & fear state of mind. When I would fall back asleep numerous times I would wake up the same way. I hate that feeling. As a child I lived my life in fear; fear of the dark, fear of being kidnapped, & fear of rejection. As a parent I have never wanted my kids to live in fear, but it is kind of hard to teach them that when I struggle with that on unexpected occasions. Of course my fears have changed as I have grown & became a wife and a parent. My biggest fear is losing my family & I still have the fear of rejection (just not as bad). So with my lack of sleep, I woke up with an anxious feeling, which means I was on edge as we got ready for school. While I am still anxious, I step outside & what do I see…. A thick blanket of fog! Oh no, this would be the first thick fog my 16 yr old son would be driving in. My heart began to race & it took everything in me not to say, “I’ll drive you”. I worry every single time he gets behind the wheel, but weather changes elevate the worry factor. So double protection prayers went up this morning.
Here I am driving in this thick fog, my awareness is heightened. Thick & low fog, can cloud your judgement, you can’t see in front of you, around you or behind you. When it’s foggy you become more cautious, you drive slower. & you are more alert.
I had my worship playlist on shuffle, & the song “Abba Father” by Planetshakers started to play. All of the sudden my anxious feeling started to leave. My Heavenly Father is still in the fog. Fog only last for a little bit, and in life we sometimes go through spiritual fog. Spiritual Fog can form a blanket around and over us. It can began to consume us and pressure, fear, anxiousness, etc start to set in & it can stop us from going forward. Fear will cripple you. When we go through valleys, deserts, & fog in our spiritual life, sometimes we can’t & won’t move anymore. Our mental awareness is low & our heart heart awareness is invisible. During this song, God reminded me to look at the fog like His covering, His love consuming me. He also reminded me that even though we can go through spiritual fogs, just like the physical fog we need to be alert, aware, cautious, & trusting in Him. Although the fog will cover things around us, the number one rule while driving in fog is to turn your lights on. Light will pierce the fog. Therefore God will pierce your spiritual fog & guide you in the right direction.
12 Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” John 8:12 ESV
Remember He is your Abba Father, & there is No Fear in the Fog because He is the light, He is your protection, He goes before you, He is beside you, & He is behind you. When fog surrounds you, stop before you panic, catch your breath & find God in the fog.
A Pastor’s Wife Finding Herself